Pornographers don’t sell pornography; they provide orgasms.
I know the institutional church thinks pornography is a sin, but they sure do like their business practices. No, institutional churches are not selling pornography, but they do provide orgasms of a different more mental form.
As I started to question why I was doing what I was doing at church over the last decade or so, I concluded that I was attending just to pleasure myself (always looking for that next “spiritual high”). I was not losing the “master of my domain” bet with my Seinfeld buddies, but I was definitely doing the act of mentally masturbating.
I found myself engaging in useless, yet intellectually stimulating conversation, usually as an excuse to avoid taking constructive action in my life. I have come to learn that the system that runs church is a business set up to do exactly that… it promotes non-action. I could not wait for the next class to start in the fall. The summer bibles studies were great. Arguing in my small groups I attended was just what my body wanted. It was a lot of surface talk, with no one wanting to know what the real problems in people’s lives were. It was a life of acting perfect inside a world of fantasy. But reality was everyone in the pews was struggling with something, but others would never know it.
Sounds a lot like what people use porn for, to pleasure themselves, and to escape reality, and live in a fantasy world… and it can be addicting.
The porn companies don’t seem to care much about how they get you what you want to see and hear. The industry will just find ways to give people their pleasure. They use postcards, magazines, theaters, DVD’s, online photos and videos, chat lines, webcams, and whatever else to get a returning customer.
The church subscribes to the same business model.
I was basically attending the First Church of Mental Masturbation. I was there to pleasure myself, to gain more and more knowledge as an individual. I was there to debate doctrine, and to be a master of it. I feel the “church” has become a place for people to have their “needs met”. They are there to stimulate themselves by enjoying what the music, what the pastor has to say, and/or how the program is ran having a “what can they do for me” attitude.
Just like porn being used for personal pleasure, mental masturbation at church gives no pleasure to anyone else either. It is very difficult to find community, when a lot of people are focused on their personal relationship with Christ. The focus needs to be on Christ (but the people who actually make up His Body), not the Jesus product the church sells in postcards, magazines, theaters, DVD’s, online photos and videos, chat lines, webcams, and what else to get a returning customer.
I believe we exist to love one another, and to expose our hearts to see the garbage that we all really deal with. We are to help the sick, the poor, the marginalized, and each other.
How could I get out and help others if I am too busy inside “mass-debating” a bunch of doctrines that I will never have the correct answer to. Well, this was one of the reasons I left the institution of “church”, I was tired of pleasuring myself and I needed to focus on one another and not just myself.
If I could have found community inside the walls of the institution, I would have stayed.
Anyone else experience church in this way, or am I completely losing it?