I have been thinking about the word “engage” from my previous post. It got me thinking about what I was “engaging” in the decade I was attending the institutional church. After thinking it over… all I was doing was engaging myself. For most of the years I was a mental masturbator. I found myself engaging in useless, yet intellectually stimulating conversation, usually as an excuse to avoid taking constructive action in my life.
I was basically attending the First Church of Mental Masturbation. I was there to pleasure myself, to gain more and more knowledge as an individual. I was there to debate doctrine, and to be a master of it. I feel the “church” has become a place for people to have their “needs met”. They are there to stimulate themselves by enjoying what the pastor has to say and/or how the program is ran having a “what can they do for me” attitude.
Mental masturbation gives no pleasure to anyone else. However, I believe we exist to give blessings to others “outside” the walls of the church building. We are to help the sick, the poor, and the marginalized.
How could I get out and help others if I am too busy inside mass-debating a bunch of doctrines that I will never have the correct answer to. Well, this was one of the reasons I left the institution of “church”, I was tired of pleasuring myself.
I realized that excessive mental masturbation was starting to feel like demon possession (it sure was fun to do, but not helping anyone). As long as I was gaining knowledge by myself and staying busy mentally, I would not be able to help grow the Kingdom, exactly what evil would want me to do.
Mental masturbation wastes resources. It takes two to reproduce, and if you just keep wasting time by yourself your resources will not be put to good use.
Let’s move to action together to help one another and stop pleasuring ourselves.